My father didn’t think he should bother God with little
everyday problems and requests. Said he’d wait until he needed something
important. I wasn’t sure if he was worried God would think he was a nuisance
and ignore him when it really mattered, or if God was just too busy answering
prayers about starving children and warring countries to be concerned with our
growing grocery tab at the neighborhood market.
And so I outsourced most of my childhood concerns. Various
saints were delegated the task of helping me find missing items and being safe
in the car. Santa Claus got the big-item-once-a-year wish list while crossed
fingers and first stars of the night got my lesser daily desires. I did pray to
God every day, but I kept to things I was certain He was interested in—like
forgiving my misbehavior and helping me to be better.
Years later, when “star light, star bright, first star I see
tonight,” Santa Claus, and crossed fingers were as distant a memory as my teddy
bear, I floundered about seeking something on which to pin my daily concerns.
That’s when God stepped in and showed me nothing was too insignificant
for Him to handle.
The same God of the universe and all things incomprehensibly
infinite was also the God of my minutia. (Care to tweet this?)
Tickets to Alcatraz
I had moved across the country to try out life In San Francisco,
but nothing was working out as I hoped. Plus, the strain of having to stay alone in
an apartment in a strange city while I pieced together enough temp jobs to feed
us was taking its toll on my young son. So one sunny afternoon we decided to have fun
and take in the city sights.
Making our way to the bay, we joined a group of tourists in
line for the ferry tour around Alcatraz. I stood at the edge of the crowd and debated
whether or not to spend my last few dollars on something so
irresponsible.
I agonized. It
seemed too insignificant a request to warrant the attention of heaven.
It would have been easier if my son had whined and begged.
Then I could have felt justified in squelching a tantrum. But the silent hope
in his eyes as he looked from me to the diminishing line melted my resolve.
“Lord, please forgive me if I'm being frivolous. It’s been a tough time for him, and he needs to have some
fun.” With that, we took our place at the end of the line.
As the last person reached the booth, I faltered. My son
looked at me with a desperate glance of hope.
“Psst. Psst.”
Standing at the side of the ticket booth, two little ladies,
each with a head full of bluish curls, were gesturing to get my attention. I
eyed them warily as they held something out to me.
“Here,” one said, her face awash in delight. “We have two
tickets we don’t need. Go ahead. Take them.”
I can’t say for sure, but I suspect, no two people ever felt
so gifted by God for a trip to Alcatraz.
The final whistle blew as we hurried up the gangplank.
Taste and see that the Lord is good; blessed is the man who trusts in Him.--Psalm 34:8
Blessings Friends,
Marcia
