Marcia Moston
I thought it was unfortunate I didn’t have a problem that
day. Otherwise I might have thanked the voice in the self-checkout machine at
the supermarket for her encouraging words. Maybe taken them as being prophetic.
Unlike the woman on my GPS who launches into a frantic
litany of commands before having a robotical breakdown if I veer from her
directions, the checkout machine voice remained calm and collected.
“Help is on
the way,” she said after twice telling me to please put the item in the bag. I
had already put the item in bag, but had tried to rearrange things so the milk
wouldn’t sit on top of the tomato, which I had unwittingly put in first, but
you can’t disturb the weight once it’s on the scale, and so I waited for my
help to arrive—a young girl with her key card that set things in order again.
“Help is on the way.” The voice played in my mind throughout
the day, reminding me of times I desperately needed to hear those words.
Years ago, I was called in to sub for an 8th
grade English class. At the end of the day, the principal called an emergency
staff meeting and asked me to come also. The teacher I was subbing for had
committed suicide. The principal wanted me to stay on until they could figure
out a permanent plan. Back then schools, or at least this school, were not
prepared for such emergencies and had no ready counselors to help the kids. But
I wasn’t equipped either.
The next morning when the kids saw me sitting at the desk of
their favorite teacher, they were angry. I became the focal point, the tangible
place they could direct their confused sadness and grief. Although I
understood, I too was floundering about how to carry on in such a tragic situation.
The principal had told me to not let them make a shrine of memorial for her on
the bulletin board as they wanted, because the school did not want to make it
seem they condoned suicide. However no one told me what to do. And so the students acted out, defied anything I suggested, and let
me know I was not their teacher.
By lunchtime the second day, the strain on us all reached
the tipping point. I needed the school to help me. Holding onto tears, I
marched down to the cafeteria where the principal was proctoring a lunch
period. All I meant to do was ask for help, but once I opened my mouth, it all fell
out. I stood in the middle of that lunchroom and told him how I needed help,
how out of control the kids were, how I didn’t know what to do. Then I started
crying and blurted out, as if in an attempt to excuse my breakdown, “And I just
got my period.”
Well that did it. Help was on the way. Whether the counselors
had already been enroute or not, I don’t know, but by that afternoon, they were
there, as was a faculty member to help me with lesson plans until someone
permanent took over. Life moved forward. I just wish that teacher had known how much her students
loved her.
Help is on the way. Sometimes it may seem to take a while coming. And sometimes it takes an automated checkout
machine to remind us. But all times, those who cling to Christ have this assurance
In
the joy of the Lord,
Marcia
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